Hi. It's been awhile since I've actually written anything here, besides book reviews. Sorry. A lot has been going on. My mom moved from Chattanooga to Knoxville and we've been back and forth between the two cities a lot lately. In fact, we've seen my mom four of the past five weekends, which is more …
Tag: sadness
Depression
I think I've been in a deep depression since Toby's death last month. And I think his death magnifies my father's death last year. I should be feeling good, living in a nice, new house in a nice, quiet, safe neighborhood, but all I can think about is how Toby isn't here and doesn't get …
A Review of The Mourning Handbook
The Mourning Handbook: The Most Comprehensive Resource Offering Practical and Compassionate Advice on Coping with All Aspects of Death and Dying by Helen Fitzgerald My rating: 4 of 5 stars I got this book a couple of weeks ago because my father just died a few weeks ago. I got several grief recovery books and …
Some Thoughts
I woke up in tears this morning. I woke up thinking about the many times my dad came to see my basketball games in school, as well as my football and baseball games. How many times we played catch in the backyard. How that was never going to be a possibility again. It's been five …
Anniversary
Today is the one month anniversary of my father's death in my backyard. It still seems so unbelievable, so surreal. One minute, he's mowing my grass, the next he's dead on the ground. It really seems cruel. I'm still stunned that I didn't get to see him coherent on his last day alive. That bothers …
An Update
So after our break in of two weeks ago, we now have a home security system in place. We signed with ADS Security, a regional home security company with a good reputation and we now have an alarm system in place on all four doors, as well as interior motion sensors. We also have signs …
Dad’s Frugality
My parents have always been frugal. When I was younger, I thought of them as cheap. Miserly often. Don't get me wrong -- there was always food on the table and I had comforts I took for granted, frankly. It's just that I graduated from an affluent high school where my peers were driving Porsche's. …
It’s Over
Dad's funeral was Friday in Knoxville and now we're back in Chattanooga. It's over. It's really hard to believe, surreal even. It just doesn't make sense that he was alive and well two weeks ago and now he's buried in the ground. It seems cruel. As my wife said, though, at least my mother and …